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I often think about how much we underestimate the power of god. "When he is silent he is working magic in our hearts." Silently placing thoughts and little whispers in your mind.

Yesterday Jeff gave a sermon during Highschool service that left me thinking. He asked us questions about how we live our life outside of church. What we see in our hearts when we look deep. What he said was humbling in a way. I'm constantly going to church, i wear that cross around my neck, and carry that bible around in my purse. I sat in my room for awhile and asked myself questions. I think what it all came down to was: Am I setting aside time outside my church life for god? Am I truely living my life for him and only him?

Truthfully? The answer to both these questions was not what I had hoped for. It was upsetting knowing what had happened had gone unnoticed for so long. Being so consumed in this world makes you blind to the things so much greater than it. Sure, I was living my life for God. He just was not the centeral focal point anymore. I think we all get a little sidetracked at times. We focus on all the wrong things.

What did i do about it? Well let's just say I had a long talk with the big man up stairs. I think I've come to an understanding in what im supposed to be doing and where I am supposed to be.


On another note this weekend was definately a good one:

Friday: Lauren and Cecily came over for awhile and watched movies. Tallia and Alex came over for a little bit and showed me this lovely video. Got a great nights sleep.

Saturday: Went out to lunch with my mom. We never get to talk anymore because of dang highschool. Then we went to a used book store and got some really good books. Went to a pottery painting thing. Next went to Chris' house to watch a movie and got to talk to him about some stuff. Then Ciara and Kristen came over to watch a movie followed my the lovely kevin

Sunday: Went to church. Went to a Nertz Party at chris' house that lasted the whole day. Im no good! Ten went home and taught my mom Nertz and she taught me SPIT! good game!

Update!!

Ive deleted most of the blogs i have wrote on here.
I feel like starting over. Going deeper into my thoughts.
Definately going to elaborate on how my summer went tomorrow after school!

Hume.

Well its friday and i leave tonight for liz's house. Then tomorrow night we are heading over to church and getting on a bus for 16 hour 17 hours. And you know what? I dont even care how long it takes to get there. Because im with some pretty amazing people!


I'm extatic. Recently I've been drifting away from the one who i call my king. Maybe this will be a huge oppurtunity to gain back what has been lost. God has been speaking to me through the words of my friends. Telling me to come back. I don't know why i have waited so long to actually listen. I guess I was being somewhat stubborn. I'm definately ready to get back on the tracks.


HUME LAKE HERE I COME!

im good.

Today started out rough. I was in a pretty bad mood in general. But i think im finally realizing what today could have been like if i would have let myself be happy.

I found out friday the new guy was coming in to speak. I was a bit hesitant to open my heart to what he really had to say. But as the service went on i found myself finding that connection i found with all the former youth pastors at cornerstone. It was refreshing. He reminded me of Ryan with his own sort fo twist. I guess every pastor has their own twist it seems. I was really suprised when the new guy called his dauhter up to sing. It was amazing. I'm really excited to see how the Maples family works in the ministry. They seem to have alot of enthusiasim and i definately can relate to that!



HUME IS IN 6 DAYS!?!??!


AKJSLASHKUASYHIUASHIUSY!


YEAH!

Whoa Whoa Whoa!?

I think its been two or three weeks since i even vistited this website.
I'm pretty sure i would'nt be able to catch anyone up with what's been going on.
You would have to be someone that's been in my life for
awhile to understand my thought process at the moment.


Lifes been a rollarcoaster of happy smiles, and tears full of sorrow.
I must say it's an exciting adventure I'm on.
I never know what's really going to come my way next.


I've always wondered. What exactly leads me to forgetting how my prioreties need to be orderd? I keep playing the switching game.

God.Friends.Boys. Family. School.
Friends. God. Faimly. Boys. School.
Friends. Boys.God.Family. School.
School. Family. Friends.God. Boys.

It's become quite confusing. But recently ive come to an understanding of where I'm at. Here's the story:

This past friday i was slapped with some horrible news. My baby brother was in the hospital due to seven seizures within a four day period that led up to the one that put him in the hospital. I wasn't sure how exactly to react to the whole thing. Should i stay home and worry myself? Should i go be out with my friends ant let them soothe my soul? Should i just keep quiet about the whole thing? I mean i wouldn't want my friends to treat me differently, at all. Things with them had been great. Throwing that in would cause complications right?
Well i ended up going out with my friends. I knew i couldent just sit there and soak in my own thoughts. I've found out recently that my thoughts can slowly kill me. I ended up having a pretty great time. We just went to a movie and joked around a little. THen i went over to my friends house and he talked to me about alot of stuff. and let me tell you, that night when i came home, i felt like i had something towereing over me. Like a huge hand swooping down and grabbing me for safe keeping.

Guess what happened that night?
My priorties figured themselves out:
God. Friends/family.School. Boys.

Notice friends/family. That night my friends became my family. My sisters and brothers.

I knew exacly then that the feeling of steadyness, wasn't from my friends. It was from god. And that exact same hand was cradeling my baby brother in his hospital bed. My friends as well, have become my foundation to hold on to. But through them I am coming closer to someone so much bigger. Someone who loves me so passionately.

I guess all i am trying to say is i have HOPE. HOPE that god will do things that are best for me. HOPE that god will carry levi through this. Carry me and my family through this. HOPE that my family of friends never leave my side. Everything is going to be okay. I have god on my side, no matter what.

Everything is going to be okay.

I am free.





Oh! and guess what happened last night? my baby brother was released out of the hospital!