Love is....

Love is the sound of your baby brother singing you the abc’s. Love is the hugs you get from your mom on the way out the door. Love is the sunset god paints to greet you in the morning. Love is the pair wrapped in blankets on the rooftop on a cold night. Love is the worship music on Sunday mornings. Love is the gift of life. Love is the sound of your favorite musician playing on stage. Love is the feeling when wrapped in a big warm hug. Love is the smile after crying on someone’s shoulder. Love is the look I get from my best friend when he knows I’ve been day dreaming. Love is feeling on top of the world, and closer to heaven. Love is the sunset that comes after a hard day at work or school. Love is the feeling of being understood. Love is making macaroni and cheese for your best friend at three in the morning. Love is the beauty of a single blade of glass. Love is the grace of something old and worn. Love is the old photographs of your grandparents. Love is the smile you et from the stranger across the hall. Love is the little hand of a kid reaching for you. Love is the wisdom of an elder. Love is the words written down in that bible. Love is the start of a new beginning. Love is being re-born. Love is the whispers of words god sends to your soul. Love is knowing you have been redeemed. and the knowledge of a savior.

It's all around us, seeping through the cracks of abandoned houses, laced in the words of people around you, and dancing in the air of a winter morning. It's a gift. And it’s been given to us by an amazing and glorious god, that I love from the depths of my soul, and need to thank more and more every day.

Mixed up.

I often wonder what leads me to make the mistakes i do.

or what leads me to the state of confusion i put mself in.

Hmmmm.

This really gets me thinking!

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I often think about how much we underestimate the power of god. "When he is silent he is working magic in our hearts." Silently placing thoughts and little whispers in your mind.

Yesterday Jeff gave a sermon during Highschool service that left me thinking. He asked us questions about how we live our life outside of church. What we see in our hearts when we look deep. What he said was humbling in a way. I'm constantly going to church, i wear that cross around my neck, and carry that bible around in my purse. I sat in my room for awhile and asked myself questions. I think what it all came down to was: Am I setting aside time outside my church life for god? Am I truely living my life for him and only him?

Truthfully? The answer to both these questions was not what I had hoped for. It was upsetting knowing what had happened had gone unnoticed for so long. Being so consumed in this world makes you blind to the things so much greater than it. Sure, I was living my life for God. He just was not the centeral focal point anymore. I think we all get a little sidetracked at times. We focus on all the wrong things.

What did i do about it? Well let's just say I had a long talk with the big man up stairs. I think I've come to an understanding in what im supposed to be doing and where I am supposed to be.


On another note this weekend was definately a good one:

Friday: Lauren and Cecily came over for awhile and watched movies. Tallia and Alex came over for a little bit and showed me this lovely video. Got a great nights sleep.

Saturday: Went out to lunch with my mom. We never get to talk anymore because of dang highschool. Then we went to a used book store and got some really good books. Went to a pottery painting thing. Next went to Chris' house to watch a movie and got to talk to him about some stuff. Then Ciara and Kristen came over to watch a movie followed my the lovely kevin

Sunday: Went to church. Went to a Nertz Party at chris' house that lasted the whole day. Im no good! Ten went home and taught my mom Nertz and she taught me SPIT! good game!

Update!!

Ive deleted most of the blogs i have wrote on here.
I feel like starting over. Going deeper into my thoughts.
Definately going to elaborate on how my summer went tomorrow after school!